Connecting the dots

The long weekend has been well spent on 1) resting, 2) doing the things that I enjoy doing (like catching up on The Big Bang Theory, How I Met Your Mother and House episodes, and reading books), 3) doing the things I should be doing and do not enjoy as much as lazing at home (like going out to shop for Christmas gifts and pay my bills), 4) family meals and 5) accompanying my brother who just got out of camp to places where he wanted to go before he goes back in.

I watched 2012 with my brother yesterday. Good action-thriller with nice visual effects. The movie reminded me of Noah's Ark though, with the animals being air-lifted into the big vessels to ensure continuity of life on earth and the scene of the big ships travelling on calm waters after earth self-destructed with earthquakes, volcanic eruptions, the shifting of the poles, tsunamis and massive floods.

Strangely and whether coincidentally or not, today's sermon was on Luke 21:25-36:

"There will be signs in the sun, moon and stars. On the earth, nations will be in anguish and perplexity at the roaring and tossing of the sea. ²⁶Men will faint from terror, apprehensive of what is coming on the world, for the heavenly bodies will be shaken. ²⁷At that time they will see the Son of Man coming in a cloud with power and great glory. ²⁸When these things begin to take place, stand up and lift up your heads, because your redemption is drawing near."

²⁹He told them this parable: "Look at the fig tree and all the trees. ³⁰When they sprout leaves, you can see for yourselves and know that summer is near. ³¹Even so, when you see these things happening, you know that the kingdom of God is near.

³²"I tell you the truth, this generation will certainly not pass away until all these things have happened. ³³Heaven and earth will pass away, but my words will never pass away.

³⁴"Be careful, or your hearts will be weighed down with dissipation, drunkenness and the anxieties of life, and that day will close on you unexpectedly like a trap. ³⁵For it will come upon all those who live on the face of the whole earth. ³⁶Be always on the watch, and pray that you may be able to escape all that is about to happen, and that you may be able to stand before the Son of Man."

I shuddered at the relation of today's sermon topic and the movie I watched yesterday.

After service, Pastor announced the contribution of an artwork done by one of our kids in church to the church. And the artwork is a painting of Noah's Ark. My goosebumps rose a little, as the picture of Noah's Ark was what came into my mind when I watched 2012 the previous night.

Whoa.

Back

Heya, sorry I haven't been able to provide much updates. November has been a tough, crazy month for me at work. By the time I reach home (which is like around 12am plus), I shower and hit the sack, totally exhausted. On some nights, I dreamt of work and I woke up feeling like shit (and probably went to work looking like shit) from the unrestful sleep. The late nights, lack of sleep, irregular meals and the daily multiple cups of coffee took a toll on my health recently when I came down with gastric flu. My body was detoxing through both rear and mouth - whatever that went in, came out. I had to take a day's off from work to rest.

The craziness is slowing down a little, thankfully. I can finally take a breather, but only for awhile. There is still quite a lot to work to clear, given the year-end reports and the planning and preparatory work to do for next year. Sigh, so much have happened at work that I'd love to bitch about, but probably not here. heh.

On top of work, I have been busy with church stuff with Christmas approaching. Christmas plays/musicals, house visiting and distributing food to the needy, and church retreat.

Recently attended a fellow sister's wedding service at Wesley last week. I was so so happy for her and her husband I teared during their wedding vows before the pastor. It was a touching and heartwarming sight to see two people in love, who overcame the odds in their relationship, finally coming together in holy matrimony before God, the pastor and congregation. As usual, after the vows and after the pastor gave her blessings to the couple, they kissed and everybody cheered them on in unison. Couldn't help but entertained a passing thought for awhile - when would it be my turn?

Yikes, I have to start planning my shopping list of Christmas gifts for people and get down to the shopping. What to get what to get what to get. Hai.

Heart vs Mind

It's so painful watching the interview of Ris Low on RazorTV - the way she speaks and answers the questions posed by the ST interviewer. For Boomz sake, stop drawing unhealthy attention to yourself by agreeing to do these interviews and invite even more media scrutiny, public gossip and mocking than you already have. You are infamous enough, unless of course, if you enjoy the attention, then I've no comments.

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Work this week has been a breeze so far. Awesome.

Brother's booking out from OCS this Saturday. And I'm looking forward to his return and for some sibling bonding with him over the weekend. It's been 2 weeks plus since he entered OCS and he's turning into a fine tanned hunky young man when I visited him with my parents last Sunday. Good for him, and his female friends he hangs out with. Haha.

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When it comes to matters of the heart, all logical reasoning fails. No matter how hard one tries to shelve the feelings away and use logic to assess and correct the situation, emotions end up preceding the mind's logical reasoning as they are stirred up from events involving a special someone.

I think I'm swaying. Oh wells.

On a random note, if I do have my own house one day, I would like to have a mini bar and a huge kitchen with a good oven in my home, so I can whip up a meal and invite friends over for dinner and drinks. There's no need to worry about reservations, battle with the crowds and noise at pubs outside, can just chill out in the comfort of home where it's quiet enough to hear myself and have a proper conversation with friends.

List of things to do that I have been procrastinating about, and hopefully will do when I find the time:

1. Driving license
2. Plan trip to Japan next year
3. Read the books that people gave and lent me over the years, in addition the 60 dollars' worth of books I bought from Kinokuniya earlier this year.

And the list continues to stay the same or extend as things get busier in the last quarter of the year. Oh bite me.

Quelqu'un M'a Dit (Someone told me)

I’m told that our lives aren’t worth much,
They pass like an instant, like wilting roses.
I’m told that time slipping by is a bastard
Making its coat of our sorrows.
Yet someone told me…

That you still loved me
Someone told me…
That you still loved me.
Well, could that be possible?

I’m told that fate makes fun of us,
That it gives us nothing and promises everything,
When happiness seems to be within our reach,
We reach out and find ourselves like fools.
Yet someone told me…

That you still loved me
Someone told me…
That you still loved me.
Well, could that be possible?

Well, could that be possible?

So who said that you still loved me?
I don’t remember any more, it was late at night,
I can still hear the voice, but I can no longer see the face,
“He loves you, it’s secret, don’t tell him I told you.”
You see, someone told me

That you still loved me
Did someone really tell me?
That you still loved me
Well, could that be possible?

I’m told that our lives aren’t worth much,
Passing in an instant, like wilting roses,
I’m told that time slipping by is a bastard,
Making its coat of our sadnesses.

That you still loved me
Someone told me…
That you still loved me.
Well, could that be possible?

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One of my favourite soundtracks from '500 Days of Summer'.

I loooove the movie. It's an offbeat romantic comedy about a woman who doesn't believe true love exists, and the young man who falls for her. I found it refreshingly different from the usual romantic comedies I've watched.. it has a mix of cartoon, art and musical. Very funny narration and characters. I thought the movie was really cute.. I give it 4 out of 5 stars. Enough said.

Last week, I was feeling so frustrated with the management and the way they worked, which hindered my progress towards my project deadline that was drawing near. On top of that, I had to deal with one of the upper management's unnecessary criticisms of my work and insistence to do things her way despite reasonable justifications to the designs I did and following my boss's preferred styles. And it wasn't nice to point fingers back at my boss for the way things are done, so I held back while she reprimanded me and my colleague. Lots of time and effort were wasted on the designs I did, including one which one of them suggested and that was so difficult to do in the short of amount of time given (I had to show them on the day itself). All because it was not communicated that they will be doing it. And her e-mails, which weren't very nice, made us appear incompetent and as though we were wasting their precious time, when in reality of things, they were wasting everybody's time.

There was a whole lot of other shits that happened but I shan't elaborate on them. Anyway, it was one sucky and emo week at work that I was near tears on the way home on Friday.

I figured life's too short to keep letting these ridiculous people affect me at work. Just focus on getting the work done and f*** them. I'm going to hang in there for one more year before I make the next move.